Pages

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Christmas Read Aloud Favorites

Today was the marathon trip to the library my blessings have been begging for! We checked out gobs of books, a beloved tradition, and snuggled tonight while Joel went all out on the Christmas tree lights this year (because he loves his wife).

Some of our very favorites:

Silver Packages by Cynthia Rylant
She is the most amazing author in my book. You just about can't go wrong with anything she has written, but this is a treasure.


Gingerbread Baby by Jan Brett, always a favorite


The Best Christmas Pageant Ever by Barbara Robinson
What a fool I was to scoff at this book until two years ago. I laughed so hard I cried. The kids LOVE it! A complete treat and MUST read!

Lastly, the very best pick of the season:

Christmas in the Country by Cynthia Rylant
If you haven't read this one yet, go get it this instant! It is a delight. We read it again and again and again and we never get tired of it!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

the rich family in church, part 2

i talked to my mom tonight on the phone and she wanted to know if the story in last night's post is true...yes!!! here is a little more of the story:
*******************************************************
This slice of Eddie’s childhood, set in 1946, has become known as “The Rich Family in Church.” Written in a letter to missionaries in 1990, it took on a life of its own and still circulates in magazines, books (Chicken Soup for the Golden Soul), and Web sites (Google.com pulls up 100 links to her story—including translations in German and Indonesian). Other than some versions mistaking Eddie for a boy (her name is pronounced like the male name, “Eddy”), the story has remained intact.

Eddie (Smith) Ogan, the sixth of seven children, who found out at age 14 that she was “poor” is now 72. She and her husband, Phil, live on Social Security. They clean the grounds and bathrooms at the Northeast Washington Fair; the Colville, Washington, Father’s Day Rodeo; and Town and Country Days at the next town over.

Are you thinking that poor girl became even more poor? Then you don’t know the end of that Easter story, and you don’t know Eddie Ogan.


Whatever Happened to the Rich Little Poor Girl?


Catching up with Eddie Ogan, author of "The Rich Family in Church"
by Kimberly Claassen

“All my life, I’ve been able to find something funny in anything that happened.” So says Eddie Ogan.

And most things were. But her story of a childhood Easter was a slight miscalculation. The story she wrote to make people laugh, made them cry. As she copied the letter with that story in it, folded and stamped it, sending it around the world to missionaries who could use a laugh in their day, she never guessed its bittersweetness would give pause to millions of readers worldwide for years to come.

We all want to see ourselves in Eddie’s story, the story of a widow and three young daughters eating potatoes for a month, keeping the radio off to save on their electricity bill, taking odd jobs, and making cotton loop pot holders to sell—three for a dollar. All to scrape together money for the “sacrificial gift” the pastor would collect Easter morning for the poor family in church.

We want to walk with them to church that rainy Sunday morning when they were singing all the way despite the puddles disintegrating the cardboard patches in our shoes. We want to proudly deposit the crisp bills in the offering plate—sitting straight in our old dresses, giving away the most money we’ve ever had at one time.

Our eyes widen and a knot forms in our throat when the pastor shows up on the doorstep that afternoon, envelope in hand, when Eddie’s younger sister’s exuberance about this surprise spills that same crisp money out of the envelope and they watch it flutter to the floor. The knots in our throats inevitably disintegrate just like the cardboard shoe patches, spilling out in salty sympathy.

We want to be this family who “went from feeling like millionaires to feeling like white trash.” We want to be them because we want a piece of something they had—something that went far beyond what the pastor could see.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

the rich family in church

By Eddie Ogan

I'll never forget Easter 1946. I was 14, my little sister Ocy was 12, and my older sister Darlene 16. We lived at home with our mother, and the four of us knew what it was to do without many things. My dad had died five years before, leaving Mom with seven school kids to raise and no money.

By 1946 my older sisters were married and my brothers had left home. A month before Easter the pastor of our church announced that a special Easter offering would be taken to help a poor family. He asked everyone to save and give sacrificially.

When we got home, we talked about what we could do. We decided to buy 50 pounds of potatoes and live on them for a month. This would allow us to save $20 of our grocery money for the offering. When we thought that if we kept our electric lights turned out as much as possible and didn't listen to the radio, we'd save money on that month's electric bill. Darlene got as many house and yard cleaning jobs as possible, and both of us babysat for everyone we could. For 15 cents we could buy enough cotton loops to make three pot holders to sell for $1.

We made $20 on pot holders. That month was one of the best of our lives.

Every day we counted the money to see how much we had saved. At night we'd sit in the dark and talk about how the poor family was going to enjoy having the money the church would give them. We had about 80 people in church, so figured that whatever amount of money we had to give, the offering would surely be 20 times that much. After all, every Sunday the pastor had reminded everyone to save for the sacrificial offering.

The day before Easter, Ocy and I walked to the grocery store and got the manager to give us three crisp $20 bills and one $10 bill for all our change.

We ran all the way home to show Mom and Darlene. We had never had so much money before.

That night we were so excited we could hardly sleep. We didn't care that we wouldn't have new clothes for Easter; we had $70 for the sacrificial offering.

We could hardly wait to get to church! On Sunday morning, rain was pouring. We didn't own an umbrella, and the church was over a mile from our home, but it didn't seem to matter how wet we got. Darlene had cardboard in her shoes to fill the holes. The cardboard came apart, and her feet got wet.

But we sat in church proudly. I heard some teenagers talking about the Smith girls having on their old dresses. I looked at them in their new clothes, and I felt rich.

When the sacrificial offering was taken, we were sitting on the second row from the front. Mom put in the $10 bill, and each of us kids put in a $20.

As we walked home after church, we sang all the way. At lunch Mom had a surprise for us. She had bought a dozen eggs, and we had boiled Easter eggs with our fried potatoes! Late that afternoon the minister drove up in his car. Mom went to the door, talked with him for a moment, and then came back with an envelope in her hand. We asked what it was, but she didn't say a word. She opened the envelope and out fell a bunch of money. There were three crisp $20 bills, one $10 and seventeen $1 bills.

Mom put the money back in the envelope. We didn't talk, just sat and stared at the floor. We had gone from feeling like millionaires to feeling like poor white trash. We kids had such a happy life that we felt sorry for anyone who didn't have our Mom and Dad for parents and a house full of brothers and sisters and other kids visiting constantly. We thought it was fun to share silverware and see whether we got the spoon or the fork that night.

We had two knifes that we passed around to whoever needed them. I knew we didn't have a lot of things that other people had, but I'd never thought we were poor.

That Easter day I found out we were. The minister had brought us the money for the poor family, so we must be poor. I didn't like being poor. I looked at my dress and worn-out shoes and felt so ashamed—I didn't even want to go back to church. Everyone there probably already knew we were poor!

I thought about school. I was in the ninth grade and at the top of my class of over 100 students. I wondered if the kids at school knew that we were poor. I decided that I could quit school since I had finished the eighth grade. That was all the law required at that time. We sat in silence for a long time. Then it got dark, and we went to bed. All that week, we girls went to school and came home, and no one talked much. Finally on Saturday, Mom asked us what we wanted to do with the money. What did poor people do with money? We didn't know. We'd never known we were poor. We didn't want to go to church on Sunday, but Mom said we had to. Although it was a sunny day, we didn't talk on the way.

Mom started to sing, but no one joined in and she only sang one verse. At church we had a missionary speaker. He talked about how churches in Africa made buildings out of sun dried bricks, but they needed money to buy roofs. He said $100 would put a roof on a church. The minister said, "Can't we all sacrifice to help these poor people?" We looked at each other and smiled for the first time in a week.

Mom reached into her purse and pulled out the envelope. She passed it to Darlene. Darlene gave it to me, and I handed it to Ocy. Ocy put it in the offering.

When the offering was counted, the minister announced that it was a little over $100. The missionary was excited. He hadn't expected such a large offering from our small church. He said, "You must have some rich people in this church."

Suddenly it struck us! We had given $87 of that "little over $100."

We were the rich family in the church! Hadn't the missionary said so? From that day on I've never been poor again. I've always remembered how rich I am because I have Jesus!

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

You are God

You're closer than our troubles
More present than any danger
More grand than gold and silver
You are God, You are God

You're the joy of man's desire
You are Father, Satisfier
We are stunned with wide eyed wonder
You are God, You are God

You fill our hearts with love and faith
You fight for us, You make us brave

You are God, You are God

You walk with us, You lead us on
Faith, hope and love wakes up with dawn
You are God, You are God

And life flows from God, it flows from God
And life flows from God, it flows from God
And life flows from God, it flows from God
And life flows from God, it flows from God

You fill our hearts
You fill our hearts with love and faith
You fight for us, You make us brave
You are God, You are God

You walk with us, You lead us on
Faith, hope and love wakes up with dawn
You are God, You are God
***************************************************
God, the prayer of my heart this morning is that You would fight for us. Lead us on, dearest Father. We can do nothing in our own strength. We can do nothing without You on our side.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

one of the cutest things I've ever seen!


i just love this!

my sister, Kristen, has started a new business with thirty-one. i am so proud of her! i had never heard of this company before, and just started looking through their catalog and loved it!



~~~purses, wallets, totes, rolling totes, baskets, lunch bags, aprons, organizers, accessories, gym bags, bibs, even clipboards and totally stylish stationery~~~



my favorite thing in the whole catalog is this tote, picture above, because you can customize each child so it resembles your family! you can customize gender, hair, skin color, and outfit! i can't wait to be able to order mine...but it will have to wait until after our approval and referral come!



do you have some Christmas shopping to do? i'm thinking my girls totally need the "organizing shoulder bag" to wear while we are in Rwanda to hold their sunscreen, sunglasses, and chapstick!






also, if you spend $31, you get a FREE Zipper Pouch, also a perfect accessory for our upcoming travel!



almost all the items in the catalog can be personalized for $6 each!



just in case you want to shop the catalog, go to this link, and then click my events, and then click "shop now"!



Thursday, November 4, 2010

breath of heaven

i confess.

i did it.

the Christmas music came out this morning.

maybe it is the cool and rainy weather today. maybe it is the mound (I mean, MOUND) of clothes that I am sorting today to give to Goodwill.



but I needed some good music and it was just time!

the song breath of heaven has ministered to my heart for years, I mean I just seriously love that song, sung by Amy Grant.

but I was almost *undone* this morning as I listened to it with new ears, with the ears of a mama who is separated from her babies, with the ears of someone who is longing.

"I am waiting in a silent prayer.
I am frightened by the load I bear
.
In a world as cold as stone,
Must I walk this path alone?
Be with me now.
Be with me now.

Breath of heaven,
Hold me together,
Be forever near me,
Breath of heaven.
Breath of heaven,
Lighten my darkness,
Pour over me your holiness,
For you are holy.
Breath of heaven.

Do you wonder as you watch my face,
If a wiser one should have had my place,
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of your plan.
Help me be strong.
Help me be.
Help me."


I could have just bolded and italicized this entire song. it so expresses my heart this morning. i am so grateful that I do not walk this path alone. so thankful for the friendships that have formed along this journey...love you girls!

Sunday, October 31, 2010

love and light and hope and peace


Did you know that YOU are loved with an everlasting love? (Jeremiah 31:3)
“The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms.”
Deuteronomy 33:27
“But God demonstrates His own love for us in this, while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8

May Jesus Christ light up your life this day and always!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

limbo-ville

has God ever had you in a place named limbo-ville?

a place where you knew you weren't going to be forever, and yet you didn't know when you would get to the next place? or even what that next place would be?

a place where you could vaguely picture what the next phase in life would be like, but sometimes it seemed that the next phase would never really happen?

a place where you get so excited about, and yet you cannot get there any faster because you. are. not. in. control.?



we are in that place. we have been in that place for what seems like forever. we are trying to rest in this place. to be fully present in the place God has us today. to not wish today away in the hopes of a tomorrow that looks different.

i have failed to do this resting thing well, to do this waiting thing well. God, forgive me. please meet us where we are this morning and help us rest in this place.

this place called limbo-ville.

ps: the picture in this post has absolutely nothing to do with anything. but he looks cute. and if i really wanted to stretch it into something meaningful, i would say that our two year old is illustrating our life at the moment: we are not at all where we thought we would be, but we are trying to make the best of it.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

staging

thank you so much for the welcome back comments.

for those of you who don't know, there is no adoption news to report. We are waiting and watching and hoping and praying.

in light of the decision to move in the direction of listing our house on the market sooner rather than later, we had a stager come to our home yesterday to give us some tips.

what is a stager? well, according to the movie leap year (which I haven't seen but heard about when I told a friend that a stager was coming to my house),
it is a con-artist.
a person who gives ideas about how to make your home sell faster by giving potential buyers the impression that your home is spacious, clean, and well organized. what paint colors to use, what accessories to add, what furniture to delete.

sounds great, right?

she walked around each room, making comments along the way, balancing nice things and well, reality. she walked in every closet. she took pictures.

there are so many things you don't see until somebody else sees them.

did I tell you she took pictures? of my closet?

The nerve.

Seeing our closet in pictures is much worse than seeing it in person each morning and evening.

Ouch.

Let's just say we have our work cut out for us. We have "the list", a detailed, room by room analysis and job descriptions. So needless to say, Joel is currently painting, and I took it upon myself to go from store to store buying "prettiness" for our "space".

I'll keep you posted.

but I probably won't share the pictures.

Monday, October 18, 2010

yoooo-hoooo

Yes, I am alive!
I am here!

Once you get really far behind in blogging, it is so hard to catch up. Just like journaling, I guess. How in the world do you say all that has been going on since May, when I last posted?

I knew it was time to post when I realized my mom knew more about the lives of the kids in the blogs on my side bar than she knew about mine. oops.

time to post.

Since May, we have
1. waited
2. finished school
3. enjoyed the beach
4. waited
5. decluttered
5. traveled to visit family
6. waited
7. started back to school
8. played soccer
9. waited.

Here are the blessings this afternoon:


It is football season. We are happy people.

Friday, May 7, 2010

I'm thinkin' Cracker Barrel


Tonight we are having friends over for dinner. I was trying to figure out what to serve when all of a sudden it hit me...why, Cracker Barrel of course!

No, we aren't going out to eat, but I thought, why not just make some of our favorite food from there?

So on the menu for tonight, we have:
Chicken Pot Pie
Biscuits (of course!)
Asparagus
Fried Apples
Strawberry Spinach Salad (not Cracker Barrel, just because!)

and, Joel's personal favorite,
Blackberry Cobbler and vanilla ice cream

Want to come?

Monday, May 3, 2010

will this be funny one day?

Ezra, my beloved two year old,


who loves to be with Daddy

and work with power tools of any kind



watched the girls and I paint our toenails. He wanted me to do his. I tried to explain that boys don't paint their toenails.

So, after I put him down for his nap, which is typically taken in my closet, which is attached to my bathroom, where the nail polish is,



I knew I was in trouble when I could smell the nail polish in the kitchen.



I'm sure one day I will laugh.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Fireproof

So we watched the movie Fireproof the other night. We have been meaning to watch it forever, but just never did.

Seems like when the kids are down (we had been told it wasn't kid friendly like Facing the Giants is) all we want to do is SLEEP, or read all these awesome books, but not watch movies.

Well, several weeks ago, a friend who owns the movie loaned it to us.

And we watched it.

And we cried.

It was so good. We just loved it and wished we had watched it sooner.





Do you need a date night with your husband? It makes me want to go and buy all the cool gear that came out after the movie did.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

walking with others

tonight my heart is heavy.

I have just returned from visiting my friend whose baby is in the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit.

The baby has been in the ICU for two weeks, and will likely be there many months unless God intervenes.

tonight we prayed, and cried, and sang.

she said to me, "i just want my life back."

she has a two year old son as well, and he is going back and forth between the homes of friends, but her mommy heart wants to be with him, and the baby...like before. but she can't.

this is her new normal.

the two year old is either with daddy or mommy or random friends taking care of him, but never mommy and daddy and brother all together.

my friend said she just misses life, you know, being at home, reading books, doing laundry.

God, thank You for my life. Thank You for our laundry. Thank You for my dirty dishes. Thank You for our messy, sticky life. Thank You for the gift of things being normal, expected, routine.

what a gift!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

One Year

One year ago tonight, Joel and I sat filling out the online application for our adoption agency. We anxiously hit the "submit" button, fulfilling a dream we'd had since before we got married. We were officially on our way. We were diving in. We thought that by this time next year, we'd have a sweet addition to our family.

But we continue to wait. We mark this day with remembrance and love. We thank God for the wait. For all He is teaching us. For all He has done.

We have always tried to remember significant days in our marriage and in our family, in an effort to "Set up road signs; put up guideposts. Take note of the highway, the road that you take." from Jeremiah 31.

And while eventually this day may be overshadowed by other important days (the day we get our referral, the day we pass court, the DAY WE MEET, the day we get to bring you home), we mark today as something special.

The day we began our journey to you.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

lazy days

It has been a quiet few days for us, which has been good for our hearts.

It has been warmer, which has brought some much needed time outside.

It has been lighter in load, with trips to the park and a walk after dinner since it was still light outside. While this is strange and different, we think it is a direct result of insisting on some margin in our lives (which for us means no sports this season...different but good for us)

We have been reading more than we have in ages.

We are going through things and trying to get rid of as much as possible.

We watched LOTS of basketball this past weekend, and bought the kids a Wii. They now think we are the coolest parents on the planet.

We had lunch with friends after church which is always refreshing to our souls. By the time we left, it was time for dinner. Just a nice, lazy day.

I am reading a book called "Choosing Forgiveness" by Nancy Leigh DeMoss, which is challenging.

And I am checking email like a crazy woman, wondering if today will be the day we hear from Rwanda.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Looking for a good book?

I am not a reviewer of books, but man, I have had some really good ones in my hands lately!

All recommended by others. All seriously unbelievable.

I am not even that big of a reader. While I have very good intentions of reading, and often have books falling over themselves on my nightstand, the actual reading part gets lost, and the desperate need for sleep or good conversation with my hubby take over.

Until recently! I can't put these books down.

Get on with it already, you are saying. Okay.



Do you have a trip coming up? Do you need a good book for the car/plane? Go get this book from the library! Go buy it! It is so good. I could not put it down.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

outta dodge

Do you ever just sometimes need to see something else?

Do you ever just like to get out of town?

Do you like to surround yourself with things that are different every now and then?

Yesterday was one of those days for us.

It was slightly warmer here, it was a Friday, and Daddy had the day off.

We decided it was time for a FAMILY FUN DAY!

Can you guess where we went?









It was wonderful.

Friday, March 5, 2010

specifically

As I've been pondering and processing what I am learning through the book I was telling you about yesterday, I think what has struck me the most is that, while International Justice Mission is cool and all, (and I do think they are way cool), freedom for captives and release from darkness for the prisoners is God's idea!

International Justice Mission is cool and what they do is cool because God is cool and His whole plan is freedom and justice and rescue! And they know that, and they proclaim that. They know that justice is not just their passion; it is God's.

What I love about this book is that it points me to God, my Father, my Savior, who loves all things FREEDOM and all things JUST and all things RIGHT; the book doesn't just point to themselves to say, "aren't we the best?"

The passage that Gary Haugen quotes at the beginning of the book is "You hear, O Lord, the desire of the afflicted; you encourage them, and you listen to their cry, defending the fatherless and the oppressed, in order that man, who is of the earth, may terrify no more." Psalm 10: 17-18

Thursday, March 4, 2010

International Justice Mission in Rwanda


I am finishing up one of the best books I have ever read, entitled Terrify No More by Gary Haugen, founder of International Justice Mission.


This post is on their website today:

Arrest in Rwanda

Friends, we want to share with you this casework victory in Rwanda from today. Please keep little 2 year old Kissa,* as well as the man who committed this rape against her, and the IJM staff team in your prayers as they move forward to bring the full circle of justice. Pray also that this case would send a strong message to others in this community that rape will not go unpunished. It has been treated with impunity for far too long, turning rape into a pandemic in this nation, and one that not only strips life and dignity, but also fuels the spread of AIDs.

From the IJM Rwanda Team:
---------------
We have a praise report from an ongoing case involving the rape of 2-year old Kissa*. In September of 2009, Kissa was raped in her relative’s home by an older male cousin while she was left unattended. The same day, Kissa told her mother and the mother immediately reported it to the police. Kissa was also examined at a hospital by medical professionals to document the incident. Shortly thereafter, IJM became involved in the case.

Last week, one of our investigators was able to secure an arrest warrant from the Prosecutor’s Office based on medical evidence and witness testimony in the case. Yesterday, this investigator assisted an officer from the Rwandan National Police to track down and arrest the cousin who raped Kissa. The arrest was done in a small village outside Kigali. A couple of children helped to identify the young man when he denied his identity. IJM’s investigator and the police spoke briefly to the cousin, and he stated that he had raped the 2-year old girl. The young man is now in jail and IJM Rwanda will continue to work with the police and prosecutor’s office through the next stages of the case.

*Kissa is a pseudonym

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Forgiveness

Today I am thinking about forgiveness.

What is it?
What does it mean?
What does it mean on a practical level?
What does it mean for me today?
How do I relate when I haven't forgiven?
How do I relate when I have?
Do I have to forgive?
If I forgive, does that mean I also forget?

As I work through this today, I realize that so many of the choices I make today about what forgiveness means will impact my children. And so it makes it even more important that I get this right. It impacts generations!

I parked at desiringGod.org this morning for my quiet time, getting some good ol'fashioned teaching and preaching about forgiveness by John Piper.

As you can imagine, there were many good things to read.

I grabbed a hold of this:
"You can actually look someone in the face and say: 'I forgive you, but I don't trust you.' But O how crucial is the heart here. What would make that an unforgiving thing to say is if you were thinking this: 'What's more, I don't care about ever trusting you again; and I won't accept any of your efforts to try to establish trust again; in fact, I hope nobody ever trusts you again, and I don't care if your life is totally ruined.' That is not a forgiving spirit. And our souls would be in danger."

Oh how my heart needs to be taught, again and again, to forgive.

Monday, March 1, 2010

uh oh

It is only 12:05pm.

My Diet Coke with Lime is already gone.

This is not a good sign.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

just in case you were wondering

Update: this is not the exact title of a great book by Max Lucado. I was mistaken. I think the bread mold got to me. The actual name of the book is Just in Case You Ever Wonder.
**********************************************************
Original:
(This is the title of a great book by Max Lucado, which is a total side note. So adoption friendly!)

Anyhoo, just in case you were wondering:
**the science fair projects are DONE.

**this is a miracle.

**they are now in the back seat of my friend's car, about to be driven to the location of the science fair, to be put up. Wasn't that sweet of her to take our projects, too? The church is 40 minutes away!

**we had a lovely dinner last night that was actually COOKED, by me, in celebration of my husband and his unbelievably difficult schedule lately. It even included dessert. A major bonus. And decaf coffee, courtesy of Marie Joy, who loves any excuse to make coffee for us. Telling you about our cooked dinner is not to brag, only to show you how much of a novelty this has become that I have to blog about it.

**now, it is time for some SERIOUS cleaning.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Mommy Guilt Gets Me Into Some Interesting Situations

Last month we got an invitation to our local home school Science Fair. I have never entered or even attended a science fair in my life. I really, truly dislike science. It brings back really bad memories. So I teach it as infrequently as I can. Which is sad, because my kids love science experiments, which is basically just a good excuse to make a mess, in my opinion.

But I felt so guilty that my kids don't get to do fun things (like Science Fairs, if you think that's fun, which I don't) just because I am lame.

So I entered them into the fair.

Please tell me what I was thinking.

The Science Fair is tomorrow. We are hosting missionaries that we don't know this weekend for our church Missions Conference. Which means that I should be in major cleaning mode, but instead, I am trying to figure out why does bread get moldy?

I have no idea.

Also, I am determined to actually MAKE DINNER tonight since I've really been thinking about the whole sowing and reaping thing. Which means I need to stop blogging and go do SOMETHING. Anything.




I am still here.


Where do I begin? Science Fair? Dinner? General mess? Laundry? This desk? Going to Costco to pick up the pictures for the Science Fair to put on the display board (and buy milk since we are totally out?)?

I mean, does anyone get excited about this? Other than my children, of course?

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Walking The Walk Today

Sometimes I can feel good about myself and the way I have walked the walk. The way I don't just say the Gospel is important to me, I actually live it.

Other days, I am convicted that my walk couldn't be further from my talk. I am convicted of being a phony.

Beth Moore gave this talk on LifeToday years ago about the Law of the Harvest. Reaping what we sow... "that now actions have profound later results."
She said, "Every single one of us, spending our life's energy on planet earth at this hour, are sowing some kind of seed. And our now sowing will have later reaping, that's what the Word of God says."




Ouch.

I am so grateful for this teaching, this reminder, this pointing out what the word of God actually says. Because, somewhere along the way, I somehow began to believe that no matter what I sow, I will reap something beautiful and godly.

For instance, in my life,
I find myself sowing time away from my kids, but wanting to reap closeness to them, an intimate relationship.

I am sowing lots of time in front of the computer reading blogs (and loving them), but wanting to reap a clean house and beautifully planned meals.

I am sowing staying up late watching the Olympics (or whatever!) but wanting to reap a readiness to spend time with God in the wee morning hours when my blessings are still asleep.

I am sowing a really weak prayer life, but wanting to reap dramatic stories of God's intervention.

My kind of sowing doesn't produce the kind of reaping that I want so much. It's like planting cabbage and expecting roses. How foolish would that be? To really think that you are going to reap something different than you sow?

God, thank You for opening my eyes to that today, and give me the courage and discipline to change even ONE thing that I am sowing. Help me sow kindness in my words to my children, unselfishness in the afternoon when I need to be getting dinner ready and I really want to be doing something else, discipline when I make choices for the moment instead of for my ultimate good.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Three Things that Make Me Very Happy

1. A full trash can. The one that has pleased me most lately is the one in our study, which is currently chock full of receipts! Old ones! New ones! Stained ones! Ripped ones! They are gone. I am almost all caught up!

2. A date with my fabulous husband. We had TWO dates this week, actually. One was out to dinner at a REAL restaurant with another couple we love, and then Friday night it was our church's postponed-due-to-snow Valentine's Babysitting Night. I love being with him more than anybody in the world.

3. Very strong coffee.

4. (I know, I know, I only said 3, but I can't stop) Very good books. Right now my nightstand is overflowing. I am reading two that I can't put down: Terrify No More and The Hole in Our Gospel. So good.

5. Let's put #3 and #4 together AND #2: very strong coffee with very good books and a date with my husband! Does life get any better?

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

quick change

I was going to update my pictures of the kids on the side bar since they are old. I picked the new ones, uploaded them, and went to delete the old ones. Couldn't do it. Not yet. Now you'll just have to look at two pictures of each of them!

August 31

First I thought it was November 17.
Then I thought it was November 12, then the original title of this post was November 7.

But no.

In the search for the oldest receipt that lives on our desk, there is a receipt dated August 31. From Target. For $8.05. Something Star Wars. A birthday party gift? A treat for sweet Caleb? Who knows. Who cares.

What in the world? How did we get so behind on life? I am usually a little behind on entering our receipts (all you Quicken lovers will know what this means). We love to keep up with our spending, know where our money is going. But August?! What in the world.

The bulk of the receipts really start at the beginning of November, where I guess life started to really get crazy and we couldn't keep up with normal things like entering receipts.

I am showing you this picture of my desk taken a few minutes ago. It is not to show you a before/after. It is not a project for me to do and then show you my progress. It is The Way Things Are.

As Joel and I continue to grow in our marriage, we have realized that you can take one look at our desk, and you will instantly know how we are doing...you know, emotionally, spiritually, foundationally. It is one of those indicators that really speaks volumes.

This is the way things are: M.E.S.S.Y.

Praying that we will be able to move on and deal with life that somehow started to stop on August 31...dealing with one receipt at a time, one day at a time, trusting that "in Christ all things hold together."

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Margin

I dug out this book from our shelves the other day, and have enjoyed its wisdom. It is called Margin, written by Richard Swensen. It is just so practical and so counter cultural. This is in the first chapter:

Marginless is the baby crying and the phone ringing at the same time; margin is Grandma taking the baby for the afternoon.
Marginless is being asked to carry a load five pounds heavier than you can lift; margin is a friend to carry half the burden.
Marginless is not having time to finish the book you're reading on stress; margin is having the time to read it twice.
Marginless is fatigue; margin is energy.
Marginless is red ink; margin is black ink.
Marginless is hurry; margin is calm.
Marginless is anxiety; margin is security.
Marginless is culture; margin is counterculture.
Marginless is reality; margin is remedy.
Marginless is the disease of our time.
Margin is its cure.

Monday, January 25, 2010

10 Projects in 10 days








Oh, pantry
I ignore you so

Do you have as many projects as I do?

I was thinking of starting a series called "10 projects in 10 days", and showing a before picture of a drawer (for example) and then later that day, that SAME drawer totally transformed into a thing of beauty and perfection.

I thought that would really motivate me to get a move on with some of these projects that are lingering (that's a really nice word for it...pounding me over the head may be a more accurate description). Projects such as our kitchen junk drawer, under my bathroom sink, my craft table, the desk in our office, our school room, the laundry room cabinets. These are just a few of the projects I had in mind that I would tackle in the next 10 days.

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Why don't I forget the whole "10 projects in 10 days" thing, and do a series on "one project in 10 days" ? Hmmm, but then it wouldn't really be a series, it would be more like a single post.

But that's okay, right?

Saturday, January 23, 2010

WTB: Prettiness

Today I am ignoring the gaping holes in the wall in our study and moving on to something a little more fun. Joel and Caleb had a fun boys weekend planned out of town, and I can't do anything about the holes by myself anyway, so I'm turning my attention to something I actually want to think about. Prettiness. My sister's favorite word.

Joel and I moved into our house almost four years ago. We have this one problem spot that we have never known what to do with, and I am feeling ready to tackle it. I have some ideas, and have even started painting a little something-something I got on the free page of craigslist. But, before I delve in, I thought I would ask you. Help!




What in the world do you do with that?

Friday, January 22, 2010

that kind of day



This was not on our agenda today.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Nurse Kate

For about 10 days now, we have had one child or another with a fever. It doesn't last long, but the poor child who has the fever is out for about 24 hours. The first one to fall was Kate. We were out of town, and bam, she just couldn't get out of bed. Once we came home, big sister Marie Joy took it upon herself to nurse Kate back to health, the American Girl way, or the Little Women way. If you have seen the American Girl movie Felicity, or Little Women, then you have seen someone sitting bedside, offering a cool wash cloth on the head of the sick person. Well, my little ones have taken this to heart, that this is the way to care for one who is ill. Last week, I didn't get a picture of Marie playing personal nurse to Kate. But I was on the look out for it this time around, and caught this on camera.

(I know Caleb looks pretty pathetic, but let me assure you, he was loving every minute of it. His sisters brought him his blankets and his Webkinz, and he was drinking it in.)

Afterwards, Caleb was sharing the love with his little sister who took such good care of him.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Staying Sane


Just a quick post to tell you about a great book I am reading entitled "A Sane Woman's Guide to Raising a Large Family" by Mary Ostyn. I asked for this book for Christmas after reading a blurb about it on the fabulous blog Cultivatinghome.blogspot.com This woman had four biological children and then they adopted six more! She has all sorts of practical helps in the book and all sorts of encouragment. Hannah from Cultivating Home gave this quote from the book and it stirred my interest:

"It bothers Jenni when people think she had a large family because she was born with unusual patience or organization or spirituality.

'If I do, in fact, display any of those characteristics, it is through the constant stretching and pummeling that my flesh has gone through in the process. And this is the crux of my reality...the one thing I want folks to know: I am the same as you. We all have opportunities for growth. I call mine children.'"

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Haiti


We are so sorry.



We are praying.